Oops..forgot about this Blog…now I am updating!

May 22, 2010 Winter

Well, it’s been 2 years since my last post!  I forgot about this blog, so I figured I would update it.    Things are a bit better now, but my husband is still the same.  I am growing in my walk with Christ, but not everyone can tell that he is.   I try to do good, but he is the only person who can cause me to lose my cool!  I am learning every day though, & trying to do things differently.  I tried the giving him sex just to shut him up thing, but it doesn’t last.  He gets mean the very next day at times.  If he doesn’t get sex he acts like a complete moron & jerk.  I have now learned to just walk away from him when he starts fights, or leave.  It doesn’t help that he is the type that will follow me around just trying to tick me off though.  We have our good days & we have our bad days.  So far I am focusing on the good ones.  I do know that if I had it to do all over again I would not have married him.  BUT, I did, & I take my vow before God very seriously.  I know his attitude will change soon, and so will his sex drive.  It’s not like we NEVER have sex, I mean we usually have sex once a week.  I think that is pretty good, compared to others who only have it once a month or longer!  I don’t feel it’s the quantity, but the quality.  I am trying to get in shape lately, so it is making me feel better about myself, & I am not as tired.  The main problem right now is stress of building a new house, & our kids…our youngest will be 2 soon..so that’s not easy!  We do need to get away & have some time just to ourselves sometime though, it’s just hard finding a babysitter for overnight.    I know this too shall pass, & our kids will be grown before we know it.  I love my husband, but I do not like him sometimes.  I know he feels the same way.   I’m hanging in there, so we’ll see what the future brings!

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